Mom reports: I hate inflicting the pain, but I always felt that immunizations were needed and the benefits outweighed the risks. My grandmother had polio and never fully recovered. Yet, after having five children I find myself feeling squeemish about getting my youngest son immunized. Tommy is textbook Asperger's and although he doesn't have enough symptoms for a diagnosis, Noah has the traits that definitely put him someplace on the spectrum. I always blamed my ex-husband because of some of the peculiarities in his personality and even more so in his family members, but maybe it is me. Maybe it is something I unknowingly pass on to my sons. It has been a long time since I found myself feeling the "blame and reason" stuff and I thought I was past this. I know better than to waste time on why and focus on life but with my infant son's first shots just a few weeks away, I find myself very nervous and uncomfortable.